Stonewall's deployment has started. There were no tears or long drawn out good byes when he was getting on the bus. I was actually in a chipper mood while I was driving home from the Armory. He called me and we talked and laughed. I went shopping just to ensure that I would stay in a good mood (and it did work) and I went out to eat with my family. It wasn't until I sat down to watch, "Meet Me in St. Louis" and Judy Garland was belting out "The Boy Next Door" that the waterworks came on full blast.
The next day I sat on my couch in my PJs and I didn't do anything except take the dogs out to potty and stuff my face with Keebler's Iced Animal Cookies. Stonewall's mom brought spaghetti and meatballs and ice cream over for me. It wasn't until after she left at like 8:00PM that I realized I probably stank and could use a shower. I sang children's songs in the shower just so the baby would know that I hadn't forgotten about him. That was really the only productive thing I did that day. It wasn't until just before I went to bed that I had another meltdown.
Yesterday, I did pretty good. No crying. I was doing good today also until I was yelled at at work. Actually, I wasn't really being yelled at, so much as scolded and had Stonewall not just left I probably would have been more indignant since I knew the situation was not my fault, but as it were, I started crying. Yuck.
Our FRG was able to sponsor Daddy Dolls (or Whose You Daddy? dolls as we liked to call them) for all the soldiers in the unit. The FRG made the dolls, we didn't buy the official ones. At first, Stonewall recorded a message for the baby, but I was like, "What about me?" so he recorded another message for both of us. That's my teddy bear until he comes home. The baby will have to fight me for it in December.
So anyway...now I'm counting down to when Stonewall comes home on leave which incidently pretty much coincides with the birth of our first baby. Then for the rest of the deployment I'll be cursing Stonewall for knocking me up and not being around to change 2AM dirty diapers :) Just kidding.
7 comments:
Yuuuuccckkkk. At least you guys had a good goodbye. I can't imagine doing it all in tears, etc.
Hang in there!
I'm so sorry he's gone :( I wish I could make it better for you!
One day at a time I guess, right?
I'm sorry :-( Hope you feel better soon. *hugs*
I'm sorry. I hate goodbyes. Lately I'm crying every time we apart for a weekend. Not in front of him; I'm trying to hide tears but I'm not sure it will work any longer cause emotions are crazy things. Hope you well better really soon!
Mine left the weekend before yours. It sucks - but what can you do?
Good luck with the new arrival.
honey - you cry when you need to, laugh when you want to. and if you need anything,let me know.
LAW
Thanks everyone! Blogging definitely helps keep me sane while he's gone because I know I'm not alone.
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