Tonight I just want to hold him.
He’s a year old. One year already.
Already I think I’m missing too much. I don’t want to look back one day, the day he’s going off to college or enlisting in the Army, and think, “I should have held him more. I should have rocked him to sleep more.”
I once told Stonewall that I could pick out my baby just by the way he smells. He smells like lavender baby soap, milk and baby boy (which is to say diapery and powdery). By tomorrow afternoon he will smell like baby boy, milk, and fruit.
I love the way his silky hair feels on my cheek and how his buttery soft skin feels when I tickle his face. He snuggles his little body into my side and plops his head down on my shoulder and he instantly stops crying. Within seconds he’s asleep and I just listen to his deep sleepy breaths.
And the most comfortable pillow in the world is the best thing to be.
One year ago. A brand new baby boy and his momma-pillow.
12 comments:
Aw, what a great post.
Maybe he is getting a new tooth? Grace normally will wake up in the middle of the night when she is teething. And I, just like you, sit and rock her until she is ready to be put back to bed. We even do this if she wakes up from a nap early. So sweet!!
Awwww...I just can't believe he is a year old already! I miss those newborn snuggles. So sometimes I snuggle her while she is sleeping because she just curls up and lays still like when she was a tiny baby.
How sweet!
Aww! He's already one!!
I started to tear up. :)
There were a few nights before Christmas, when Everett would do that. He'd wake up screaming for no reason whatsoever, and I'd let him cry for a bit, then I'd break down and go get him. I'd end up pulling him into bed with me, and letting him fall asleep on me. Of course, then he'd end up moving and twisting til he irked the poo outta me and I'd put him back in bed, lol.
What an adorable photo!
I just found your blog and let me tell you as a momma who's about to have baby #5 and a mom who's buried her oldest litte girl, you hold that baby, you rock him, you jump when he cries at night...guess what even if it becomes a habit, who cares? He will not be crying out for you for ever, and he's not going to want you to rock him one day, far too soon. You will NEVER regret rocking him, but as you said you don't want to look back and regret not! I'm not sure when it became such a dirty word to answer a babies cry (and yes imo a 1 yr old is still a baby). Enjoy him and feel no guilt!!! It goes by far too quickly.
I look at my almost 9 year old and wonder where in the world the time has gone, it seems like just yesterday I was bringing him home from the hospital. It flies by.
so cute. :o)
what a great pic - snuggle him to your heart's content - you can't spoil him with love :D
he is so cute
I just found your blog and I have a two month old baby girl and I agree with you - I dont think you can hold and rock your baby enough - I am blessed with a good sleeper who only cries out when she's hungry...but her baby smell - I wish I could bottle it up forever!
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