I am just so ready for Stonewall to be home. I'm so tired of being a "single" mom, of eating dinners alone, of taking care of the house by myself, of taking out the trash, of answering questions about when Stonewall will be home, of being the only one without a date, of sleeping alone. I'm especially tired of having to be completely together practically all of the time, so it doesn't appear that I can't handle this lifestyle.
So after eleven months I am just ready for this deployment to be over and for Stonewall to come home.
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I feel your pain. I am so over my deployment. I'm tired of civilians who don't understand or are insensitive. I'm tired of living alone. I'm tired of it all.
Hang in there. I just keep reminding myself that he has to come home sometime.
I'm only half way through mine, but hopefully your honey comes home soon.
My hubby is not gone yet but right now he might as well be.
Sorry you feel the way you do. If you find a way to get out of the rut let me know. I could use a pointer or two
I do understand. I hated the navy life and all it entailed.
I'm sorry you're so overwhelmed. I don't think I could I deal with my husband being in the military. You're so strong.
I hope your hubby comes home to you soon & all will be better for you :)
At eleven months, it can be hard to keep on trucking through the rest of the deployment. We've done two, and I promise, the end does come. Hopefully your next day will be better!
Hang in there, you've only got one more month and he's back! I feel the same way but I'm only at month 8. You can do it!
I wish my hubby was at 11 months already. Unfortunately mine hasn't left yet. He leaves in a little over a month. It's our first deployment and I'm very scared. I don't like being alone at all. And I have no kids yet to keep me company. Any advice any of you can give me, would be very helpful. And I hope all of your husbands come home safe!
Hang in there...you're almost there!
I hope the time flies by till Stonewall's home! I hate it when Mr. T's gone, even if its only for a short time.
I agree! I am halfway through month 10 and I am so over it. I don't mind cutting the grass, doing the laundry and everything else every once in awhile....but doing on my own is becoming old. I am ready for it to be OVER. I can't wait to go to weddings WITH my husband and go out to eat. Life is better when he is home...
I see how hard it is on you everyday, and you don't know how much I wish there was more we all could do for you. And I don't know if it makes it any better, but you should feel very proud (like we all do) of how amazingly well you handle Stonewall's deployment. Not only do you have to run your household all by yourself but you're raising an amazingly adorable little boy by yourself. You're an inspiration to me, as well as to all your family and followers. The end is coming and I know you'll handle these last few weeks with the same strength and dignity as you have the last 11 months. I love you sis!
Oh girl I'm sorry. I hate that he has to be there, and you have to be alone.
Hugs!!
I am only a month into this deployment and I am so over it as well.
You are an amazing woman. Strong and courageous. I admire your ability to carry on, to handle work, home and a baby by yourself. Lil Mootz is the happiest, most pleasant little sweetheart, and that's because of you. I'm proud to call you my daughter. It's okay to once in awhile cry, pout and acknowledge that you are lonely and worn out. You're entitled. I love you.
Amen Sister! I am right here with you!!! I am at 11 months also...next month and it's all over! WE WILL HAVE DONE IT!!! You can keep going you are so strong!
After a while, I just couldn't be nice anymore. I was getting boarderline depressed last year. I got to eat lunch at home every day, and sometimes I would lay on the couch and sleep or cry until I had to go back. I swear to god, my dog was the only happy thing in my life for a while. I was so lonely and so tired of EVERYTHING. It wears on every aspect of your life. I can't even say I handeled it well in public at the end. We're right there with you.
You painted a really good picture of what it's like. Haven't experienced it yet but if God has deployment in store for us I know that I will have ask the Lord for lots and lots of strength to get through each day without my husband. We have a baby on the way, our first and I know that this will make matters even harder but God will be by ourside if that is what He has in store for us. Hang in there my fellow military wife....you'll be in my thoughts and prayers. It's almost over!
I've felt so inspired reading your journey over the past months - especially during the months when Jer was gone training. You've been real and honest, and I know I appreciate you sharing your journey. Tomorrow morning I drop Jer off and he's gone for 14 months. I'm barely holding it together these past couple of days (I thought I'd be doing much better than I am too considering he's been gone so much in the past 6 months) and I'm hoping I can handle it the way you have over the course of your deployment. Hang in there!
The last month or so is the hardest because you are so close, but need it to be over right now!
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You're so close to being finished! You are doing amazing, and soon you'll have your hubby home! I know it's a struggle, but trust me, you are an inspiration for me!
man, i just got to read this...i'm sorry...we grew up in the military and i remember how rough it could be on my mom. you are such a strong woman and your baby will appreciate this so much one day!
I'm sorry, sweetie. It'll all be over soon. And it will all be worth it to have him next to you again. :) Keep your chin up!
In the last three years and 9 months, my husband has only been home roughly 9 months of it, and not consecutively. He's not even Army, he's a Marine.
I've had a baby while he was gone, (first deployment), and almost died from a heterotopic pregnancy (third deployment), with a wide range of things happening in between.
One of the best things I've found to get me through a deployment was to set a MAJOR goal each time he left that would better our lives, our relationship and our circumstances. The first time it was to pay off all our credit card debt. The second time it was to pay off ALL our debt and be fluent in Quicken. The third time it was to get organised (I'm a clutter loving packrat) and have it become second nature to me. Good thing the last time he was gone 15 months! While I do NOT like him being gone, I have found it more bearable to have very large, concrete, difficult (for me) goals to work on while he is gone. In my mind I am in a competition with myself and the time to see how much I can accomplish before he comes home. The goals might not be big for some people, but those were very hard for me.
Yes, there are still times I'm exhausted and overwhelmed and just tired of it all. But in general, "for me" it seems to work very well to have big goals to cram into the time he is gone.
I hope it gets better soon.
Laurie
I know it's kinda late to be commenting. But I just have to thank you for giving us such a personal look at what military families go through to protect our nation. Thank you to both you and your husband:)
I hope you are having a better week this week.
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